Spun OUT

Approaching my 30th birthday was like waiting in line for the newest thrill ride at an amusement park.

The anticipation is both nauseating and exciting; the line is creeping forward and the whole while you’re thinking, “yikes, you signed up for this.” You see the faces of the people around you, staying cool on the outside, but you know deep down, they feel the same way you do.

“What’s going to happen?”

“Why am I doing this to myself?”

“Hundreds of people get on this thing everyday, and they are fine.”

“What if I puke!?”

“I mean… look at their faces as they get off. Looks like such a rush”

This slightly torturous and impending doom lurks over you as you get closer, the knots in your stomach and hysteria builds. There is a point at the last minute, just before your time has come to step on, that you think… maybe I just won’t ride… But you do; you step on that roller coaster, settle in, pull the safety restraint down as tight as possible around your hips, and you think, “whether I am ready or not, we are taking off.” And then that’s it.

Ripping around the tracks strapped to a huge piece of metal that’s been perfectly engineered for this exact purpose. As the cart goes tearing through its course, everyone waiting to ride is just watching, like, damn… that looks intense. 

The ride comes to an end, the restraint lifts, and everyone merges towards the exit… some laughing, some looking as if they have just been through hell and back, and some high fiving each other. 

That’s how it felt to turn 30.

As the day got closer, at times I was a spectator, just watching my peers as the number of years they have been on this earth rolls over to a new decade. Other times I am on that damn rollercoaster; just mouth open, screaming and absolutely breathless. Full-well knowing, that I volunteered to shred through my life from day to day, at absolute hyper speed, just hoping to check one more box off of the list of things I would like to accomplish before I die (or turn 30).

I want to let you know, that I KNOW, there was no reason for my insanity, IT’S JUST A NUMBER… but that is not what the fountain of youth is about for me. It’s so much more than that. It is the accomplishments. The goals, the fruition and manifestation of everything I saw myself unfolding as… and growing as. It’s the hopes and dreams and the worry that I’ll never have enough time to do everything I wanted to. Sure most of this is just made up in my head, but to me, it was as real as that freaking roller coaster.

I grieved on that dreadful little Tuesday, and the very next day, I woke up ready to get me life back to the way it should be. I was feeling calm, cool, collected, and giggling at myself for being such a drama beast.

Life is good.

Thirty feels the same as twenty-nine, shocking right?!

Much gratitude for the grounding and loving words from friends, family, and clients while in my chaotic state.

It would have been much worse without all of you ❤️




I don’t understand what it means to be a mother.

I am a single, childless, adult woman, who has never experienced the joy and devotion of motherhood.

I do however, have the privilege of working with mothers every single day. Ninety-five percent of the women I see in the salon, as clients, are mothers; and I get to hear about their struggle, their triumph, and their committed and unwavering love for their dearest babies.

With that sense in mind, and that knowing, my work at it’s deepest level is to support these women in their roles by fostering a space for them to be completely themselves; to take off the wife hat, the employee hat, the boss hat, the mom hat, and the nurturers hat, to just be… nurtured. I know that sounds redundant, but ultimately our innate feminine ability is to nurture. It is my intention to create a space in which these roles are not needed, so that the client can be cared for at a soulful level. This is where I put much time, attention, and value into the work that I do. It is for this reason, as well as many other, more obvious reasons, that I do not allow children to be guests at their mother’s appointments.

This business boundary is one that has not always been well received, I understand how hard it is to arrange life around personal, and seemingly frivolous appointments, I can only imagine how hard it is to arrange the little lives you heroic mothers are responsible for. Contrary to how it may seem, this policy is in place to allow for the most beneficial experience to unfold.

As a stylist my mantra has always been,

The difference between a happy, and an unhappy client, is communication.

I prefer to thoroughly discuss the goal for the appointment at the start of each and every one, as to make sure we are on the same page before diving into chemical and cutting services. I choose to be very present during sessions, not answering my phone, consulting with other clients, or multi tasking in any other ways which would distract me from the job at hand. I take this work very seriously, and have such passion for it. Any personal or business boundaries, policies, and needs are set with thoughtful intention, and are always in place to insure the best possible relationship, and communication, between a woman and her stylist.

I am so grateful for the support I receive in this beautiful, artistic journey, it is because of you gracious women that I show up in this capacity.

Much love and light to the wonderful women in my life,





To My Anxious Friends,

I think it is safe to say that the word “overwhelmed” describes your emotional world right now.

I think it is safe to say that you are trying too hard to understand and see what each path and choice will lead to in the future.

I hate to be the one to tell you, that no path, or outcome is guaranteed… and the only constant in life is change, and transformation. No amount of anxiety or attempted control can make things any other way.

I was a very high strung person. My control issues were a result of my fear that a crippling anxiety attack would eventually overtake me. After a lot of hard lessons, meditation, and finding a quiet space to house my worrying heart… I have learned now, to come back to this space of surrender.

I experienced so many situations in which I was shown that no amount of worry or struggle could ultimately control the future.

We hold the keys to our own happiness. Those keys do not come in the form of a map which perfectly orchestrates, and coordinates our lives, to manifest as the ideas and images we put there. So our only option is to surrender to what life brings us and to take each knock as a lesson, each triumph as a blessing, and each love as an experience of divinity.

The only control we have over our lives, is in each present moment… there we have the ability to make choices that will lead to more love and happiness for ourselves and for those around us. To put more good into the world by being aware of the time, space, and opportunity we have right then and there.

Don’t dim your light to fit in.

Don’t ever make yourself small.

Not for anyone.

Trust that when you have to let something go for one of these mentioned reasons, that something so much better is waiting for you.

Fulfillment begins when you stand in that power.

With love,



Follow Your Heart

This weekend’s theme seemed to be “Follow Your Heart”. I felt opportunity arise to inspire the people around me constantly. It was as if I kept walking into an aroma that overwhelmed my senses to such a degree, that I could not help but lean into it and inhale deeper. I was being led into conversations about work and purpose, and I acted on my reflex to encourage. Confessions were made to me, a friendly passer by, and in these moments I just said “Follow your heart. If you’re doing what you love and you are filled with joy every day because of it, the money will come.”

Abundance follows joy. When we are in a positive state, it is much easier to spread positivity and happiness. As these exchanges take place, they continue to build upon one another; each encounter becoming more friendly, more familiar. When we familiarize ourselves with giving and receiving joy and encouragement, a flowing rhythm is placed in the beat of our day; like the ebb and flow of the tide.

“Today and everyday, I give that, which I want to receive.”

-Deepak Chopra

As we let go of our need to hold in the soulful expression of that which we desire, our hearts lean into a state of opening. As we share this state with others, we are filled up miraculously. If we want to be successful with our dreams we have to move into that flow state. Trust in this, if we are doing that which opens our hearts and brings joy to the world, we will always be joyful. If we are supporting others in their journey to reaching their dreams, we will be supported in reaching ours. If we congratulate others on their abundant lives, our lives will be abundant.

With this practice we find the cages in which we have placed our desires. Where it becomes difficult for us to give, is where our difficulty is in receiving. We acknowledge these things and work toward complete surrender to the abundant ebb and flow of giving and receiving.

May we all open our hearts to joy, abundance, and prosperity for others, so that we might have that too.





Appreciation VS Gratitude

The definition of Gratitude is being thankful and in readiness to return kindness; while the definition of appreciation is to fully understand, recognize, and enjoy the qualities of something or someone.

Why is this an important distinction and when is each word most appropriately used or exercised?

The two tend to be carelessly swapped for one another in our language, and though they both reflect positively, they do not mean the same thing. Gratitude, although a high vibrational word, implies a debt of some sort, as if we have overcome great obstacles and are forever in service to our saviors. Removing the implication that we have been saved, anchors an all encompassing vibration of non-judgement. To appreciate your body, is to fully accept it, as is. To appreciate your partner, is to accept them for their truth nature. To remove judgement from our language, is to set up each and every interaction as an observer. Bringing appreciation to the forefront of your relationships allows a sort of authenticity to be present, and replaces fear with radical acceptance.

May we all move through our gratitude into a space of appreciation for the soul holders that surround us, and our own light bodies.

Love for you all in this new year,




Fake IT Until YOU Make IT!

Happiness… man has this word been a paper weight in my head space for the last few months. What is happiness and why is it so hard to obtain at times?

I have had some interesting experiences and observations popping up over the last few weeks, and each time I began to dissect these encounters, the question returns to my mind… why are people so unhappy? Analytical in nature I turn to self-study… what makes me unhappy?


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What is Your Life’s Work?

You know… I really never applied a deeper purpose to my career as a hairstylist. I always thought that my artistic ability and competence in communicating with clients were the things that pushed me towards success.

After all, what kind of affect can a hairstylist really have on the world?

I built my business on the intention that everyone should be able to afford to have good hair! It wasn’t until I was 9 years in, and busier than ever did I begin to question that; was it enough? It seemed I was working every waking hour, I was burnt out and wondering what my life purpose really was. Sure I had so many beautiful and gracious people around me most every day, but was I really making a difference in their lives? Was I making my life count? Was I building my legacy?

This question has been a great source of my anxiety for quite some time now. After countless hours of inertia, self study, and examination, I came to the conclusion that I had been asking the wrong question all along….

I was asking, “Is my life meaningful?”.

I should have been asking, “How can I make my life meaningful?”.

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