Fall in Love With Food Again

As a women, I know the struggle.

I haven’t always been thin, and it hasn’t always come easy for me. My body and my food addiction is something I have always had insecurities about; constantly fad-dieting and looking for work out programs to shed the pounds quickly.

It never worked..

I had to fall out of love with food (or what I thought was food) to remember what food is actually for.

Food is meant to nourish our bodies. That is it.

Obviously I still eat things strictly for pleasure and I’m sure I always will… But what I have learned throughout all of this, is when I am eating for pleasure, it is NOT for my physical body. The cells and organs within my body will not ask me for a milkshake and fries. (Though I DO believe our bodies have cravings at times because we are lacking certain elements to our diets.)

Discernment is what is going to be your ally when working through food addiction. Am I craving fries because I am lacking salt? Possibly. But my heart may just be craving fries to attempt to fill a void emotionally. Fries are not going to fill that void.

I believe our bodies are addicted to the chemicals in our food. You’re not addicted to dreamscicles, you’re addicted to the sugar and artificial coloring in them. Why do I believe this? Because I did an experiment… I recreated my favorite treats and foods, organic, preservative free, animal product free… And guess what; it tasted good but it didn’t satisfy that craving. I tried organic, clean etc etc… Nothing compared. I realized my cravings were specific, and shared ingredients. So I detoxed.

I gave up (most) processed foods all together, basically eating unsalted nuts or seeds and produce; either raw or lightly sautéed in olive oil and sea salt with a bit of rice or quinoa here and there. I ate oats with peanut butter for breakfast and drank black coffee, tea, or water. I had a very bland and boring diet, but it worked. As the weight came off and my body began to feel light and agile, I began to incorporate more things into my meals. Keeping as best as I could to a vegan, preservative free, chemical free, diet.

It’s been 4 years since this major shift in my life, my body continually feels better and for the last 2, my size has remained pretty consistent. To this day, I continue to experiment with my food and body habits, never wavering from a plant based diet, but occasionally incorporating other foods into my life that I typically don’t consume. Though I still eat very healthy and watch everything that I put into my mouth… I dont feel my best when I am not eating a clean diet. I believe in eating whole and simple, grown from the earth, foods. When I eat things that go through some sort of processing, I without doubt, feel slower, heavier, and more lethargic. The pleasure from eating that little treat is short lived as it begins to digest; I immediately feel regret. The benefits of eating an apple or a spoon full of almond butter lasts, I still get to kick the sugar craving but my body thanks me afterwards by utilizing those nutrients.
I have learned to fall in love with THAT feeling.

The feeling of a body full of vitality, energy, and self love.

I love food and I love how my body feels when I put delicious and nutritious foods into it.

Fall in love with your body by falling in love with food for what it was meant for; to nourish it. Fall in love with the feeling of a healthy and strong physical body and a healthy and strong mind will follow.

Be good to your body and it will be good to you.



The Process of Un-Learning

A Course in Miracles states, Discomfort is arroused only to bring the need for correction into awareness.

Correct minded thinking or correction comes from a source of pure love and light. It comes from our very core at which our highest vibrational being exists. We have been generationally, environmentally, and universally conditioned to believe things which teach against this inner vibration, some refer to this opposition as the ego.

When we allow ourselves to be conditioned by the ego we become sick minded and our bodies may begin to manifest physical mind and body sickness.

To think and see from this high vibrational source is to become right-minded. The Course refers to this process of right-minded thinking and seeing, as the process of unlearning. As we heal our minds, we return to our original and only state of being, which is perfect.

Illness, hair and skin issues, sadness, anger, body pain, heart pain… All of these discomforts we may be prone to feeling is a plea for awareness from our bodies; either the spiritual body or the physical one.

The more intune I get with my body and its true needs, the more easily I feel these pleas, drawing awareness to arising issues when they are young and gentle rather than screaming and full blown.

Something about my own nature I have accepted, is that I am always searching to be ultimately comfortable. Eccentrically trying out lifestyles, diets, looks and work choices, but never really settling… What I have realized over many years of doing this, was that I was just searching to display my authentic self; the person I felt I was on the inside. A deep desire burns within me to reflect my inner self as truly as possible, and that my inner being be as divine and beautiful as possible.

So I escaped from darkness…

Or began to.

Searching for the divine light within me and always striving to be better, smarter, faster, thinner, prettier, more loving, these desires didn’t make me broken or lost. They helped me escape the darkness and ugliness by forcing me to take a good hard look at what in my life was making me uncomfortable and why. When done in a positive way with love and light as the basis of your intentions, this search can put you on the path to unlearn the things which you have learned that cause you pain and discomfort.

The only way out of darkness is through it.

I needed to see the darkness and ugliness that I had been projecting onto the world. And trust me, asking to see and express your true self, all of your darkness and ugliness included, can be a bit scary.

Once you begin this journey through everything that makes you feel pain, you will see that it was never really hiding; because darkness cannot truly hide. As you choose to heal everything that hurts and feels empty, you will recognize that there is nothing you want to hide even if you could.

The fear will leave you as you unlearn ugliness and learn and accept perfect love.

Because that is what you are.

A perfect creation of love.



Why a Plant Eater?

imageIf was able to take a trip back in time to visit myself 5 years ago, the old version of me would not believe what my future self would tell me about my diet and lifestyle changes. The old carnivore Tia, would laugh hysterically at the thought of becoming a vegan and losing 70lbs and would never have believed that I could have committed to permanent dreadlocks.

Our potential and growth is shocking when observed in great lengths and leaps of time.

The evolution into a plant based diet happened ever so gradually, as my stubborn nature and diet conditioning was getting the best of me at times. I had tried everything under the sun short of lipo suction or surgery to lose weight. Taking extreme diet pills which helped me shed the first 30lbs. I maintained at a weight I was still not comfortable with and my skin wasn’t so happy with the “supplements” I was taking. Although the product claimed to be safe and natural, my body was telling me otherwise. I soon came to the realization that a magic pill wasn’t going to get me where I wanted to be, and a lifestyle change was in order.

Jumping into an extreme and detailed diet never worked for me, and I have always been skeptical of a book telling every person to eat the same way… I didn’t think that was the answer so I had a real talk with myself.

What could I actually give up, today, that I know is bad for my health and is adding to my inability to lose weight?

Mountain Dew was my reply. It was the only thing I could promise myself I would not ingest. It was the only restriction I could put on my diet at the time. I still drank other sodas and energy drinks, but Mountain Dew was my favorite and I was committed to making permanent changes.

Once I didn’t crave that dew and after still attempting to drink other sodas to satisfy that craving, I gave up soda all together. Which included my Red Bull habit. (That was probably harder to let go of than cream cheese on bagels).

Once that habit was kicked, I gave up high fructose corn syrup, then hydrogenated oils…. And so on… One ingredient at a time, I kicked my food addictions.

I don’t claim that a vegan diet is the best thing for everyone. I don’t claim eating meat or animal products serves an addiction of any kind. In fact, I believe every person knows innately what makes them operate at their highest vibration. For me, my body, mind and spirit seem to function at the highest vibration when I am eating a diet of unprocessed plant based foods. Whole foods grown from the earth feels the most right to me at this time. I try and check in with my body to really ask it what it needs for nourishment and I do my best to listen for the truest answer.

That is the key to finding the diet that will most serve you.



Letting Go


Its something I was basically born with.. From a young age I’ve had a hard time letting go; of my toys, clothes, food, saying goodbye to people, hobbies and so on. My lack of ability to trust in life and others perpetuated this survival type attitude. Although I have the ability to easily emotionally disconnect, my reasoning mind can justify holding on.

We call this our head and heart.

My heart always knows when it’s time to let go but my ego and brain worry and find excuses to hold on a bit longer.

What I didn’t realize for so long is that this process of holding on seeds a belief that there may not be enough one day, which is rooted in the belief that there is such a thing as lack. This automatic and implied lack, obstructs the flow of abundance by creating a belief that whatever we require may not be available to us.

Detaching from an outcome, or letting go, allows us to receive abundance because we believe in it. Allowing the stream of complete well being and wholeness is done by believing you are whole and well. Having enough love, friends, food, work, sleep, or money is dependent on your belief that you have enough.

And that is true survival mode… Letting go and trusting in the abundant universe to help you meet your needs.




You call it intuition… I call it spirit.

Photo by Danny Holland
Photo by Danny Holland

While studying in A Course In Miracles chapter 6, I had a sudden recognition of spirit in a new light. I have always been able to identify with a vision during meditation or healing exercise of conversation with an angelic like being, or the raw gut feeling of knowing. I have even been able to believe spirit as a messenger of God like Hermes or Holy Spirit… But this particular epiphany brought everything home for me. As I read this section I felt so at peace with a gentle sense of knowing, as if my inner being was singing, nodding, and hugging, with a deep sensation of love and completeness. I read;

How can you wake children in a more kindly way than a gentle Voice that will not frighten them, but merely remind them that the night is over and the light has come? You do not inform them the nightmares that frighten them so badly are not real, because children believe in magic. You merely reassure them that they are safe now. Then you train them to recognize the difference between sleeping and waking, so they will understand they need not be afraid of dreams. And so when bad dreams come, they will themselves call on the light to dispel them. (A Course in Miracles, p132-133)

After embracing such a gentle message I realized that my belief and understanding of spirit has evolved throughout my awakening process. Whatever you call it, intuition, gut feeling, Holy Spirit, or higher conciousness, it is simply our perception of a nudge from whatever source of supreme power you believe in. We are awakening and being chosen to call on the light to dispel the dark from this reality.

Let Spirit lead the way.